I am a lover of Childrens books. I could sit for HOURS reading to my kids. So tonight when I snuggled into the rocking chair to read to my Sabrina (almost 2...can that be TRUE??) I picked out one of BOTH of our favorites. The Very Hungry Caterpillar. As I read about the little egg in the moon light...that turns into the cute little bug...who eats and eats and eats....ALL MY FAVORITE THINGS. Fruit, cheese, cupcakes, pizza. And then what happens??? The catipliller feels SICK!!! HOLD THE PHONE!!! This is a BOOK ABOUT EATING HABITS haha!! WHO KNEW???
I started to let that thought run its course as we read. The little caterpillar eases his tummy ache, caused by SUGAR overload, by eating greens. Hmmmm.
THEN....my kids favorite part....the little Caterpillar turns into a BIG FAT CATERPILLAR. When William was little he would YELL that part and LAUGH AND LAUGH AND LAUGH. But tonight...as my thoughts progressed...I thought OH NO!!! You poor BUG!!!!!
Then what does the bug do??? IT HIDES ITSELF AWAY!!!!! So, I know its not really from shame over its bad eating habits. Yet, isnt that SO TRUE about REAL LIFE???? That we can become so focused on our bodies flaws that we HIDE OURSELVES from the world??? I could feel myself getting ALL CHOKED UP. OVER THE CHRYSALIS!!!!!!!
Then the caterpiller....after hiding away... becomes a BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY. Here come the water works!!! I started to CRY.
I am the butterfly!!! I know how it FEELS to feel trapped inside a body I dont love. I know how it feels to feel like my eating habits are OUT OF CONTROL!!!! THIS BOOK IS ABOUT ME!!!! (aren't all books symbolic somehow??))
For the FIRST time in my life I feel like a beautiful butterfly. Free to BE MYSELF. FREE to make my OWN CHOICES and in CONTROL of my own future!!
AND IT FEELS AMAZING!!!!
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