Day ONE....COUNTDOWN TO THE Beachbody CLASSIC. Why On EARTH would I do this?? NOW?? (during the last 6 weeks of my hubbys grad school and a OUT OF STATE MOVE??).....BECAUSE I CAN...AND I WILL

Its 6:31 am.  I have SMASHED 2 workouts...Listened to scripture and a book on YOU TUBE...drank my Shakeoogy and NOW...I MUST BLOG.  ALL before my kids wake up.  WHY???  Because I am COMMITED.  TO WHAT??  To the Beachbody mission.  To family.  To MYSLEF.  To be the BEST version of me that I can be.  So that includes GROWING myself everyday.  
  Over the last two years I have gone through a transformation.  MIND, BODY, AND SPIRIT.  I battled my anxiety and depression...still do...everyday.  But I have FOUND INSIDE MYSELF a DRIVE and PASSION that I never had.  The desire to BE MORE, DO MORE, and inspire others to RISE UP and LIVE THEIR LIFE!!!!
    I always ENVIED those who could sing on stage.  I love music...but I  am NOT a singer and I HATE being onstage.   When I really too k a good look at my life last year...I asked myself.  WHAT DO YOU REALLY REALLY WANT out of life???   my answer.....TO BE THE ROCKSTAR OF MY OWN LIFE.   AS A WIFE, A MOM, A FRIEND, A PERSON.  I just want to stand on the stage of my OWN LIFE and ROCK IT.  I dont need applause.....but I want the CONFIDENCE it takes to OWN IT.   Thus I became " Rockitmomfitnes".     BE the MOM....BE FIT...and ROCK IT.   Thats what I want to be.   And....I'm going to DO IT.
    I have BUILT my body into something STRONG and HEALTHY.  Inside and out.   AT HOME.  I became a Beachbody coach because I BELIEVE in their products...because I am WALKING PROOF that they work.  SO...naturally I wanted to COMPETE and PROVE that I CAN BE PROOF of the Company I love and work for.   So....I did something TOTALLY out of my comfort zone.  Signed up to do their version of a bikini competition.  Now...I have issues with wearing a bikini.  Not because I am ashamed of my body but because I HONOR it.  But...this is something I really felt like I should do.  So, I'm going to do it.  Do I intend to WIN?  No.  I dont care about placing or winning.  Because I am NOT competitive.  But I intend to PROVE TO MYSELF that I have what it takes.  So who cares if I dont even make it to the stage.  I am committing myself to be THE BEST ME I CAN BE! 
   I"m going to blog my little 6 week journey.  I've been meaning to blog for a long time.  So here we go.  This is me...unfiltered. Unedited.

My PLAN.....

I am doing a hybrid of the last 6 weeks of BODY BEAST and the 21 day fix.   So MAX that means I am working out for an HOUR AND 10 minutes a day.  Period.  I dont have time for more without sacrficing time with my family.  And THEY are my #1 priority.  And they DESERVE  my focused time.  SO...I WILL make the sacrifice to go to bed at 10 and get up at 4 if neccessary.  To be a better and more focused mom.

   My Meal plan will be the 21 day fix meal plan.   For these first 3 days I am doing the 3 day FIX then I will be sticking to the 21 day Fix meal plan with my calories between 1250 and 1500 depending on how HUNGRY I am.  and minimum of 1 gallon per day.

I dont believe in doing anything excessive.  This is IT.  Thats ALL I will do.  AND I know Beachbody...I know it WILL WORK.  

 DECIDE....COMMIT...SUCCEED.    I WILL..... WATCH ME.

Rockitmomfitness is a GO.  See you at the Classic

The Very Hungry Caterpillar....tear JERKER???

I am a lover of Childrens books.  I could sit for HOURS reading to my kids.  So tonight when I snuggled into the rocking chair to read to my Sabrina (almost 2...can that be TRUE??)  I picked out one of BOTH of our favorites.  The Very Hungry Caterpillar.   As I read about the little egg in the moon light...that turns into the cute little bug...who eats and eats and eats....ALL MY FAVORITE THINGS.  Fruit, cheese, cupcakes, pizza.  And then what happens???  The catipliller feels SICK!!!  HOLD THE PHONE!!!  This is a BOOK ABOUT EATING HABITS haha!!  WHO KNEW???

I started to let that thought run its course as we read.  The little caterpillar eases his tummy ache, caused by SUGAR overload, by eating greens.  Hmmmm.

THEN....my kids favorite part....the little Caterpillar turns into a BIG FAT CATERPILLAR.  When William was little he would YELL that part and LAUGH AND LAUGH AND LAUGH.  But tonight...as my thoughts progressed...I thought OH NO!!!  You poor BUG!!!!!

  Then what does the bug do???  IT HIDES ITSELF AWAY!!!!!  So, I know its not really from shame over its bad eating habits.  Yet, isnt that SO TRUE about REAL LIFE????   That we can become so focused on our bodies flaws that we HIDE OURSELVES from the world???  I could feel myself getting ALL CHOKED UP.  OVER THE CHRYSALIS!!!!!!!

   Then the caterpiller....after hiding away... becomes a BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY.   Here come the water works!!!  I started to CRY.

I am the butterfly!!!  I know how it FEELS to feel trapped inside a body I dont love.  I know how it feels to feel like my eating habits are OUT OF CONTROL!!!!  THIS BOOK IS ABOUT ME!!!!  (aren't all books symbolic somehow??))

For the FIRST time in my life  I feel like a beautiful butterfly.  Free to BE MYSELF.  FREE to make my OWN CHOICES and in CONTROL of my own future!!

AND IT FEELS AMAZING!!!!